Hay, I don't know what's up with me today, but I feel like writing, I don't know, maybe it's because I miss Steven so much that I have to try to keep my mind off missing him but I miss him even more.
Anyway, today was one of those nice days that was not so nice, what I call a happy day not so happy, "A happy father's day" to my dad BTW.
He took my little sister and I for a walk at the park. My sister tried rolerskatingg, but dad said she has to practice so more.
You know how I love parks and nature, so I should've been happy, right?, but seriously, all I could think of was, "I wish Steven was here walking with me".
We were there for a while and then we came back home and went swimming.
Didn't want to do that either, even though it's one of my most favorite things to do in the summer. I just laid down on one of my little sister's floter thinggies and pretended it was his strong arms, but it didn't do me much good.
I guess my little sister could tell something sad was going on with me because she's been with me almost the whole day trying to cheer me up in a playful way.
After we came back and had lunch, I did exactly what I needed to do, go to bed and meet Steven in dreamland.
Without him, my life makes little or no sense to me.
I remember telling mom days before to tell everyone even my little sister to not wake me up and just let me sleep, so this time they finally did.
I did until Steven called and woke me up himself, like Sleeping Beauty, I was waiting for my prince charming to call and wake me up with his sweet, handsome voice.
That made me feel better, so I went to mom's and then I played with my little sister until now.
But the thing is, I've only had a week here and I feel aweful with this, how would it be if I was here 2 or even 3 weeks?
Most of what I've been doing this whole week was play with my little sister, get online, go swimming, and sleep, sleep, sleep. That's all I want to do, because dreamland is the only place where I can find him right now, and where he can make my dreams come true.
Well, I did that besides going to se my grandma and my aunt and uncle and all that.
I also used this time to talk to momm when she was here, but most of the day she's at work and she only has Monday's off, so maybe I will spend some more time with her.
I also have an appointment at 1:00, so I have to go to bed.
More updates sometime next week and don't forget the story!
Bye
Monday, June 16, 2008
How the Story should be
TO entertain myself, I found this nice story on a magazine. I really love it, but I don't like how it ends, so I will edit it and post the edited version sometime next week.
To read it, just click here!
http://mail.google.com/mail/h/jvn1g9kcsk42/?realattid=file0&attid=0.1&disp=vah&view=att&th=11a903660ee78d5b
Hope you like it too. If you want you can send me some suggestions on how to finish the story so that it will be nicer.
To read it, just click here!
http://mail.google.com/mail/h/jvn1g9kcsk42/?realattid=file0&attid=0.1&disp=vah&view=att&th=11a903660ee78d5b
Hope you like it too. If you want you can send me some suggestions on how to finish the story so that it will be nicer.
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
Our vacation, a time for us
Hay, I just got back on Sunday.
Ok, so it wasn't what I thought it would be like, but it was a fine time for us to get to know each other and just be together like we should, that way I would have a basic idea of what living with him would be like.
It was one of those things that can be fun and boring at the same time, fun because I had him with me, and almost everything about him excites me because he's just too hard to resist, and even if most of what he did was read books, still, he's just way too cute!
Exactly! we could've been in jail if we had to and do nothing and still it would've been much worthwhile than doing everything without him.
It was also annoying because his friend has a little daughter that all she does is scream so loud and so high that would make your head hurt and then gets into trouble.
But guess what, another one of my dreams came true: swimming together, yei! I'm sure if mom or someone would've been there I'd have them take a ton of pictures even though I can't see them.
We went swimming at the river, and had fun. It was v beautiful, especially when he was holding me in his arms in the water, it felt as if I was flying!, no, not just flying, like a dream.
That was the first time anyway. The second time we went he left and I didn't know he wasn't coming back, so I stayed there playing with the little girl for a moment and then I waited for him, wondering if he was coming back.
He probably thought that was a bit immature of me to get a little upset and to wonder, so he told me to go away for a while, but the earnestness in his voice made me cry my way home and I felt like I was starting to lose him, but then when we went to bed I laid in his arms and that made me feel much better.
Anyway, there's not much to tell about those other days, but like I said before, he could make wonders out of even the most crappy thing I can ever think of.
One day he surprised me when he went into the room after I was there for a few hours listening to music, and he sounded so cheerful when he told me: "you are so cute! I really can't get over you, you're so cute!", for a moment I was so surprised and amazed that I wondered if I was dreamming. I told him he's cute too, 'cauz he is! Seriously, as soon as I touch that angel's hair of his, it gives me the chills and I feel so ready for him.
Another v creepy thing about this that I found out is this: If he gets mad at me because I don't like movies or the books he likes, or if something happens that would make me upset or worried, he can easily get it off my mind with his cuteness or by doing something that would make me fall even more in love with him, like a kiss, cuddling, or lovemaking! yes!, that too!
Ve creepy right?, do you think that would be a problem in the future? mom says I have to be very careful with those kind of things especially if I'm so in love, but how could I if loving him is like breathing, so natural, and so darn beautiful? there's not a minue that I don't think of him!
Ok, so we did that a lot, you know what I mean, LM, like a soothing thing, and it felt so good, that was another way to have fun and get high. For the first few days I was having some issues adapting to his sleeping schedule because we went to sleep at 9 or 10, and you know that's early for me, way too early, I felt like a school kid. I mean, I don't mind that if I have to wake up v early, like for something like a job or something that will require more energy, but not for a vacation or for just laying down, my body doesn't like that.
But then after the first week we found a schedule that was suitable for both of us: went to bed at 11.
That weekend he bought me a wire I could record music with and I then could do that whil he went to sleep or read his book.
Except for this last weekend, I had another chance to stay up all night together Friday night when we went to Morgan's workplace.
It was ausom, and I think she took some pictures of us there too.
We were out from 3 P M to 6 in the morning, and then we did it and went to bed.
The night of the 7, our 6 month aniversary special time will be the most unforgetable, sparkly times!
I took the bottle of that sparkling drink that Cokie gave me to San Antonio and then when his friend found it, I told him to tell her not to open it until the 7 because it was for our 6 month aniversary.
Then we kept it in the frig until that very day, until he finally opened it. I took a shower and put some lotion on before the occasion, I wanted to dress up in my dancing clothes but didn't want anyone else to see me like that but him, so I didn't, what a fool! oh well.
Then we went together to open his "Surprise", as I called it. "cheers", he said, "happy aniversary". Then we went outside and sterted talking of when December 7 was and remembering thos sweet moments when we were just starting. In my mind, I was thinking, "Hope it lasts forever, but if it doesn't, I'll always love you".
Then we went to the room, and danced to that aladdin song, "A Whole New World". In a way, I can identify with the song, especially when I sing it with him, and that's what we did. When he sang "I can show you the world,
shining, shimmering splendid", I can feel like he's talking to me, and I literally meant it when I said "Let me share this whole new world with you", and at the end, we kissed.
I loved it, something as simple as that makes me feel like I can do anything with him.
I played a few other meaningful love songs, including our anniversary song, "Breakfast to Tiffany's", then we did it and went to bed.
The next day before it was time to go, all I wanted to do was to be with him, to hear his voice, his laughter, and the way he calls my name.
I told him I will miss him, and somehow, I could tell he'd miss me too.
We packed up and then we left for the bus station.
We kissed goodbye before he left at 3, and then I had to "fight" to get here, well, not literally but I had to be there for about four hours before I could finally get on the bus.
I got here at 10, tired and angry, but I felt lucky I got here safe and sound.
He was worried about me when I told him about he insident and sent Josh, Morgan's boyfriend to help me catch the 7:10 bus, but then they got me on the bus and I led him know so he had to turn around. That's what I call, not just crappy, but craaaaaaaappy, oovercrappy.
Then the next day after getting my checkup taken care of and some bloodwork done, I went swimming with my 2 sisters and mom videotaped.
Tonight I didn't go swimming but I had some woman to woman talk with mom.
I told her about the possibility that I might move in together with Steven since our relationship is going so well, she told me that the best thing to do would be to talk to dad and ask for permission, but I totally disagree with that, well, I would talk to them for sure and let them know, but ask for permision?, no way! there's no permision for love!, and I have to go where my heart tells me to go now that I am living in Austin.
Of course, like she said, I would watch out for some of those things she mentioned, like if he treats me right, though so far I haven't had any problems with that during our vacation and all this time we've been together, but I feel that he's making me better, and that's a good thing.
Well, got to go because mom want's me to get up early to go to the post office, update sometime this or next week.
Good news, I have a new Gmail acount that Steven helped me open up and I want to look at it more closely and explore it.
Hope you enjoyed this, laters.
Claudia in love.
Ok, so it wasn't what I thought it would be like, but it was a fine time for us to get to know each other and just be together like we should, that way I would have a basic idea of what living with him would be like.
It was one of those things that can be fun and boring at the same time, fun because I had him with me, and almost everything about him excites me because he's just too hard to resist, and even if most of what he did was read books, still, he's just way too cute!
Exactly! we could've been in jail if we had to and do nothing and still it would've been much worthwhile than doing everything without him.
It was also annoying because his friend has a little daughter that all she does is scream so loud and so high that would make your head hurt and then gets into trouble.
But guess what, another one of my dreams came true: swimming together, yei! I'm sure if mom or someone would've been there I'd have them take a ton of pictures even though I can't see them.
We went swimming at the river, and had fun. It was v beautiful, especially when he was holding me in his arms in the water, it felt as if I was flying!, no, not just flying, like a dream.
That was the first time anyway. The second time we went he left and I didn't know he wasn't coming back, so I stayed there playing with the little girl for a moment and then I waited for him, wondering if he was coming back.
He probably thought that was a bit immature of me to get a little upset and to wonder, so he told me to go away for a while, but the earnestness in his voice made me cry my way home and I felt like I was starting to lose him, but then when we went to bed I laid in his arms and that made me feel much better.
Anyway, there's not much to tell about those other days, but like I said before, he could make wonders out of even the most crappy thing I can ever think of.
One day he surprised me when he went into the room after I was there for a few hours listening to music, and he sounded so cheerful when he told me: "you are so cute! I really can't get over you, you're so cute!", for a moment I was so surprised and amazed that I wondered if I was dreamming. I told him he's cute too, 'cauz he is! Seriously, as soon as I touch that angel's hair of his, it gives me the chills and I feel so ready for him.
Another v creepy thing about this that I found out is this: If he gets mad at me because I don't like movies or the books he likes, or if something happens that would make me upset or worried, he can easily get it off my mind with his cuteness or by doing something that would make me fall even more in love with him, like a kiss, cuddling, or lovemaking! yes!, that too!
Ve creepy right?, do you think that would be a problem in the future? mom says I have to be very careful with those kind of things especially if I'm so in love, but how could I if loving him is like breathing, so natural, and so darn beautiful? there's not a minue that I don't think of him!
Ok, so we did that a lot, you know what I mean, LM, like a soothing thing, and it felt so good, that was another way to have fun and get high. For the first few days I was having some issues adapting to his sleeping schedule because we went to sleep at 9 or 10, and you know that's early for me, way too early, I felt like a school kid. I mean, I don't mind that if I have to wake up v early, like for something like a job or something that will require more energy, but not for a vacation or for just laying down, my body doesn't like that.
But then after the first week we found a schedule that was suitable for both of us: went to bed at 11.
That weekend he bought me a wire I could record music with and I then could do that whil he went to sleep or read his book.
Except for this last weekend, I had another chance to stay up all night together Friday night when we went to Morgan's workplace.
It was ausom, and I think she took some pictures of us there too.
We were out from 3 P M to 6 in the morning, and then we did it and went to bed.
The night of the 7, our 6 month aniversary special time will be the most unforgetable, sparkly times!
I took the bottle of that sparkling drink that Cokie gave me to San Antonio and then when his friend found it, I told him to tell her not to open it until the 7 because it was for our 6 month aniversary.
Then we kept it in the frig until that very day, until he finally opened it. I took a shower and put some lotion on before the occasion, I wanted to dress up in my dancing clothes but didn't want anyone else to see me like that but him, so I didn't, what a fool! oh well.
Then we went together to open his "Surprise", as I called it. "cheers", he said, "happy aniversary". Then we went outside and sterted talking of when December 7 was and remembering thos sweet moments when we were just starting. In my mind, I was thinking, "Hope it lasts forever, but if it doesn't, I'll always love you".
Then we went to the room, and danced to that aladdin song, "A Whole New World". In a way, I can identify with the song, especially when I sing it with him, and that's what we did. When he sang "I can show you the world,
shining, shimmering splendid", I can feel like he's talking to me, and I literally meant it when I said "Let me share this whole new world with you", and at the end, we kissed.
I loved it, something as simple as that makes me feel like I can do anything with him.
I played a few other meaningful love songs, including our anniversary song, "Breakfast to Tiffany's", then we did it and went to bed.
The next day before it was time to go, all I wanted to do was to be with him, to hear his voice, his laughter, and the way he calls my name.
I told him I will miss him, and somehow, I could tell he'd miss me too.
We packed up and then we left for the bus station.
We kissed goodbye before he left at 3, and then I had to "fight" to get here, well, not literally but I had to be there for about four hours before I could finally get on the bus.
I got here at 10, tired and angry, but I felt lucky I got here safe and sound.
He was worried about me when I told him about he insident and sent Josh, Morgan's boyfriend to help me catch the 7:10 bus, but then they got me on the bus and I led him know so he had to turn around. That's what I call, not just crappy, but craaaaaaaappy, oovercrappy.
Then the next day after getting my checkup taken care of and some bloodwork done, I went swimming with my 2 sisters and mom videotaped.
Tonight I didn't go swimming but I had some woman to woman talk with mom.
I told her about the possibility that I might move in together with Steven since our relationship is going so well, she told me that the best thing to do would be to talk to dad and ask for permission, but I totally disagree with that, well, I would talk to them for sure and let them know, but ask for permision?, no way! there's no permision for love!, and I have to go where my heart tells me to go now that I am living in Austin.
Of course, like she said, I would watch out for some of those things she mentioned, like if he treats me right, though so far I haven't had any problems with that during our vacation and all this time we've been together, but I feel that he's making me better, and that's a good thing.
Well, got to go because mom want's me to get up early to go to the post office, update sometime this or next week.
Good news, I have a new Gmail acount that Steven helped me open up and I want to look at it more closely and explore it.
Hope you enjoyed this, laters.
Claudia in love.
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