Bored

Hay again.

I just want to express my feelings about this whole thing with this blog, and one thing that really concerns me is that, other than my birthday and our anniversary, our relationship has become pretty boring and monotonous. It seems as if the only thing we are both sharing is the room and the bed, we don't share the same dream, we only talk for a few minutes before he starts playing the game again or puts his book on, and then he cuddles with me for a few minutes at night before he goes to bed no later than 10:00, and when we wake up is the same thing all over again.

Well, almost always. I must acknoledge that he did sing to me on Friday before I went to the bookstore with Cokie to help her wrap Christmas presents, and today he bought me dinner and we talked a little bit more than we had in weeks.

I think he is now beginning to notice that I do get dissappointed when he spends most of his time in the game and his books, so today he surprised me when he got on the game a little later than usual, and did not turn his book back on when the battery ran off last night. That's a plus for him!

However, today he almost broke my heart when he said that he wouldn't date me anymore for being too expensive ... it was a joke, but still, he almost did. I knew it was a joke because as soon as I left the room and was on my way to the bathroom to cry for him, he stood in front of me, put his arms around me to stop me, hugged me, an said: "Where are you going? come here"!

Then we ordered Mexican food, I got me some type of rice and beans that reminded me of mom's rice and beans, but it was called a "ditch bowl". It reminded me of that saying, "I'm in a ditch and can't get out", from "magnificent obsession", I loved it!

After that he wanted to look for some sounds on my computer and then he went back to listen to his book.

News: Mom said I could stay here in Austin until Sunday, so I've changed my ride for Sunday afternoon, so we can have our usual Sunday morning before I leave.

Last minute news: I finally convinced him about going to walk around in the mall or do something fun before I leave. I won't be seeing him for a month unless I can come sooner than January 18, and there is very little chance that I will be able to, like I told my friends, "I'm gonna die"!

Anyway, I have to go so that I can dance a little more before going to sleep, (early). I have to wake up early tomorrow because I have my A T U at 8:00 and I don't know how long it's going to last, and then we'll talk about a date for Friday, I'm think going to the mall is a good start to get him to try new things.

Laters:

Claudia ... one hour on the clouds, then one on a ditch, stuck, not knowing what to do.