Valentines makeup day

Today was, what I call, our valentine's makeup day, or our late Valentine's day? I don't know.
It was a beautiful day today, with lots of sunshine and everything in between.
We agreed that he was going to take me to get a manicure yesterday but it was too cold and rainy, so he said we'll do it today, which was a good idea and I'm glad we did.
We had a hard time finding a place,but then he remembered that we went to the mall and they have a saloon there, so we actually got it done in the mall.
It was all cool, I got my manicure and pedicure and he bought himself some boots and he bought me some limonade. We were even singing on our way home, and the day felt like spring.
When we got home, he got on his game for a little bit and I put my dancing shoes and some jewelry on and started dancing. I was having fun!
After that, when I was just about to take my usual nap I take when he's on the game, he came out and told me that he would like for us to spend some time together. "how about some music?, he told me.
I was excited about the idea, so I turned on the computer and we listened to some music together. We were singing and dancing and I sang a song for him. He was laughing at me when he heard me sing "I feel like a woman", he thought it was funny and changed the words of the song a little bit and then hugged me and kisss kissed me. Then we were remembering good old times, playing songs I first heard after our first day, that beautiful day I still remember.
Then it was 10:00, and he said he had to go to bed because he had work tomorrow, so we kissed goodnight, and he went to bed.
I am still very happy, as I haven't been in almost 2 weeks since what happened before Valentine's day, and because unfortunately my young heart can only handle a limited amount of monotony, for some odd reason, my dreams were becoming dim and unclear and I was almost feeling like I was getting bored of him, which if we wouldn't have had this ausom makeup time together, I would've probably start falling out of love, but I don't even want to think about that. Today I found myself as in love with him as I have been last year, and it really brought a good spark on our relationship to spend this time together. If I wouldn't have school tomorrow, I would probably stay here and dance all night, but I can't, oh, but I can't wait until I see my dreams becoming sweet and clear again, I bet they will!

Laters
H I L, back up in the clouds!

He doesn't know how to have fun

Ok, today was the big day, right?

So my grandparents came in and it was all good, he looked handsome in his bright stars shirt, and so did I in my top with sequence and teardrop beats and my dinnom with little ribbons at the side pockets.

Steven was making me smile and laugh a lot even before they came, and my grandparents were very happy to see us together.

They took many pictures of us and Cokie, and then we went to Whichwich for lunch. Before we went to whichwich, I played my fiddle and he played his wistle.
We also took pictures at Whichwich and we drunk limonade together.
We had an ausom time, or should I just say I had an ausom time because he was so serious?
Anyway, the thing was when we were in the car, and dad offered to take us out to the lake. Steven told them that he had to go to Sams to buy some stuff for work. I knew he had to go to Sams, so that didn't surprise me. The thing was that that right after my dad gave me the money that my dad sent me and they all left, he found out that he didn't have to go to Sam's, and that someone else would do it for him. Or maybe he already knew and didn't want to say anything, he's smart like that, you know?
He told me that he didn't hear the voicemail because his phone was on silence mode,but to me it was more because he wanted to get here just so that he can play his game or listen to his book.
Furthermore, I know it was because as soon as he told me this, we argued a little, then he got mad at me and made me cry, and then he was in the room, playing his game and then on his book most of the day.
I was really sad and went to the bathroom to call Bianca and cried and cried like a baby.
I think he heard some of it. I hid away in one of the big drawers to wait for Britany to call me back,and then took advantage that he was out smoking and Cokie was gone to get into the room before he came back in. He was on the phone with his cousin, as soon as he found me, he got off the phone, hugged me and kissed me and put me to sleep.

I was asleep till about 12, when I got up and came out here because I didn't want to hear his book anymore.
And that was my day today, hopefully tomorrow I will have a better day. BTW, no school tomorrow, yei!
Note: now that have a labtop and a scanner, I've been scanning some of Cokie's papers. I need to take this time to familiarize a little with my new equipment. I also have lots of money, about $220 cash, so I have plenty for my lunch at ACC.
Laters,
Frustrated H I L

Valentine’s heartbreak


I still feel bad about Steven’s labtop being stolen and everything, but I am also feeling like crap about the whole valentine’s thing. For some reason, I am starting to not like holidays, even my favorite one.
I also don’t understand why he said he would make it up to me and he didn’t, it’s disappointing.

I woke up this morning with his phone ringing, it was a message, so it rang every ten minutes or so and it drove me crazy. After doing who knows what, he went back to bed with me and we made love for a few minutes. Then he was holding me, cuddling with me like if he didn’t want to let me go or something. That part was good, except that I could tell that he was trying to put me back to sleep.
I also liked that part because he didn’t really listened to his book, until later.
I had to get up to put away my laundry because my grandparents are coming with my dad tomorrow to drop off some stuff, and they want to see how we are doing.
He was playing the game BTW.
I hung up my clothes, but then he started listening to his book and acting real lazy.
I was stunned by his behavior in valentines day?
I know I said this many times, but maybe he isn’t really in love with me, maybe he just likes the sex and the making.
Anyway, then we went to H E B, nothing wrong with that, I needed to go there there anyway to buy more bauchers for my rides to school, although I really wish we would’ve gone somewhere else as well, like to the park or to the lake.
Anyway, he said that when we got back home that we would listen to some music or sing a little bit, but guess what? More book.
He played the guitar for a little bit, but then I had to watch Cokie coming home with her husband. Tommy, her husband, married another woman a few years ago, but they still see each other, at least once a week, and even though Cokie is stil a little upset about this other woman, they seem to still love and care for each other like Steven and I once did.
What got me really upset was how Cokie was all excited about him riding the train with her, they both sounded so romantic, so ecstatic, but we? Nothing.
They were hugging and kissing and talking about us, and about my new labtop. He even wanted to come to my room, but I scared him off so he stayed in Cokie’s room.
Then he finally left, not without Cokie waiting outside with him before his cab got here. I am not really sure if he left her flowers or candles, but I’m so sure that it was something good and lovely, something I wish Steven would’ve given me instead of just listening to his boring book.
Even if he would’ve given me a note or a love shower, it would’ve meant something to me. That’s why I went into the bathroom, called Britany and cried. I think Steven noticed, because he slammed the door when he went to bed.
IT was all really stupid, a really heartbreaking experience, and that’s why right now I don’t give a dam about valentine’s day and I’m glad it’s almost over.
Britany went party with her friends, and they were even laughing at me.
Well, now that I got my labtop, I might write more often, so I’m thinking of renaming this blog, and call it my daily journal. With Steven living here with me, it might do me some good.

Laters:
A heartbroken H I L

Laptob

Quick, quick, Good news, I now have a new laptob. Perhaps that will help with the ACC crap.
As a mattar a fact, I am writing from it today and I am very happy with it.
I am also working on getting my books.

Steven and I are also doing much better, at least he doesn't spend as much time in the game like he used to. His laptob got stolen by some jerks at work.
I felt sorry for him, especially after what he told me. He told me he was going to do something special for valentine's day, that he was going to take me out and give me a dozen roses, and a surprise that I've ever dreamed of. He sounded so sad and tender when he told me this, almost as if he knew that it would break my heart, and I almost cried.
I really feel bad for him, but at the same time, I can't believe it, he was planning on spending 200 dollars on me for valentine's day? that would've been really ausom.
But right now, I'm disappointed, not at him, but that this happened to himm just before our day, and at work.

Note: my grandparents said they were coming on Sunday, but they can't because my grandpa is sick. That makes it Ok for now, since there is no place in the couch and the table for them to sit down, it's all filled with boxes, my printer, scanner, and all the crap that came in with my laptob.
Ok, gotta go, more updates later.

H I L : p o.