Sunday, December 13, 2009

I'm learning to use Messenger!

Hi. This is V cool! you gonna like this.
I just talked to my sister, not on the phone, but on the messenger!
I like the little sound it makes when someone sends me a message.
Earlier, my aunt Carla send me a message to, but I was kind of
sleepy and I didn't remember her for a moment. I didn't know what I
was doing, I was in some kind of a trance, but then I remembered and
tried to talk some more but then she logged off. I love it, it's V
Cool!
I just sent myself some emails on my messenger, and then I talked to
myself on messenger. Also, my sister showed me how to make a call so
that I can talk as if we were on the phone.

More hot news: My anniversary gift was small, but was the most
vbeautiful and highly valuable that I've ever received from Steven.
It's a little necklace in the shape of a key, with the head of the key
being in the shape of a heart sprinkled up with little bitty dots of
diamonds, it was ausom!
But what was more ausom was the way he gave it to me!
I got home from the show, which by the way wasn't all that exciting
enough to be mentioned, except that I got a knew jacket to cover the
straps on my dress, and took it off so I could put my PJ's on, but
then he told me: "I got you some more limonade, go put it somewhere,
quick, quick, go!"
He followed me as I went to grab the big box of powdered limonade
sitting on top of the bar, but when I tried to move it,a pretty little
gift package slipped out of the top of the container. I put the
limonade on top of the drier, but left the llittle package sitting in
the counter, thinking that it might be too pretty to be for me, then I
said, "cool".
What's cool?, he said smiling,
"I just found this pretty little thing sitting on top of my limonade,
and I thought that was cool."
"Well, bring it over here, it's yours".
I ran back to the room with the little package in my hand, and he followed me.
I opened it, and Iwas so surprised by the way it was wrapped in.
Inside the little giftback, there was a box wrapped up in silken paper
full of little bordered flowers, hearts and a bow like one of the
christmas present's wrappings. I expected to find something on the
box, but instead, I found another box that seemed to be empty. I
opened the other box and the lit covering, and iside lay a beautiful
silver necklace, well, much of the necklace couldn't be seen cause it
was covered, but the little key kept drawing my attention.
"It's beautiful", I couldn't stop saying.
He explained to me about the necklace and how he found it. Then he
put it on me, and the way his hands felt around my neck and the straps
of my dress almos mesmorized me.
"Happy Anniversary baby", he hugged me and kissed me, I was so
excited I could hardly breathe. Then he taught me how to put it on
and off, and I showed it to Cokie when she came home, and she told me:
"How wonderful!, he gave you a key to his heart!"
I wore it on Wednesday when I went to school, but noone even looked
at it, crappy people, but it didn't matter, I loved it.
I didn't even care that I didn't pass the final, it was bound to
happen, and I was relieved to get a break from it for a few weeks.
I only have to finish my last music lesson for the year, then I'm
going to Houston.

That's it for now, I'm going to explore this messenger thing a
little more, then I might go to bed.

Laters: H I L: can't wait for next year.

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

I messed up on "Bag of Dreams"

I messed up on "Bag of Dreams"

On Saturday afternoon, I went with Steven to an openmic night
thing. Somebody on myspace, who had a page claiming that he had a
band with the name Radio Valley sent me an invitation to sing at an
openmic thing at a little smokeshop not far from where I live.
I told Steven about it and so we went. We had to wait 2 hours
before the dude showed up with only a guitar and base player and a
microphone. I was mad, but kept the thought to myself, "That's it?,
no drums, not even a stereo?
The dudes don't even play right!"
I decided to hear them play for a while, even though I didn't feel
like it, and see if more people would show up or if it was going to
get somehow better, nothing. Steven told them some jokes to make them
laugh for a while, and then they gave me the mike and I sang "Bag of
Dreams" and "Waking Up the Neighbors".
Well, scratch that, I tried to sing "Bag of Dreams", but some other
dude was doing his thing with the guitar right in front of me while I
was trying to sing, right in front of the mike! I wanted to scream,
and to yell at him to shut the hell up, I'm trying to sing, but
instead, I acted like a moron and forgot the words right in the middle
of the song.
I was downright insulted, and worst of all, Steven noticed. "And you
thought you had stage right?", but instead of mad or laughing, for
a moment he sounded understanding. Just for a moment though.
Then it seemed as if I wasn't there because Steven got them to talk
about cars and driving. He tried to get them out of it afterwards,
but those guys when they get into something it's hard to get them off
of it. And then I sang "waking up the neighbors", when they started
trying to pllay it with the help of my recorder. They said they were
impressed with my singing, but, as I expected, they didn't have any
big position to offer me on their unformed rock band. If I had a
band, I would at least make sure that we take our work seriously and
get where we need to go play on time, even if it were in the streets.
But that's not all, yesterday was our anniversary, but we didn't
have time to do anything because I got home late from the rehearsal
for the show.
The show will be today at 7:30, but I don't think noone I know will be there.

Anyway, got to go start my busy day, tomorrow will be my last day of
school, yei! Then I have to go to Houston for Christmas to see my
familly and go to more Doctor's appointments.

Laters
H I L: Today I got to work, work, work.

Friday, December 04, 2009

My trip to Dallas and a sucky birthday

My trip to Dallas and a sucky birthday

My trip to Dallas was ausom, in part. I met Steven's family, which
was the coolest part of the whole thing, and Terry, Steven's best
friend, who I first thought was his sister,and I loved his mom.
She was the sweetest woman I've ever met, well, besides Cokie,
though Cokie kind of lost some of her sweetness months ago.
Anyway, Steven wanted to get the room, then Terry took us to eat at
Tacobell, and I got that taco sallad I like, and then I finally got to
meet his mom at her house.
His mom hugged me as soon as she saw me, which made everyone smile
and do the same.
Then we went to Steven's friend's party. It was kind of boring at
first but then I danced with his friend Terry and sang "Bag of
Dreams", and I had an OK time.
Then the next day we just went to pick up some stuff and then we spent
time with his family. I absolutely loved his mom. Even though his
sister was as cool as I wish mine was, and even though Terry said she
likes me, his mom was the only one in the family who radiated some
kind of spiritual light, as if her heart, mind and spirit were
stronger than her body, or as if she were touched by an angel. She
was the only one in his family who offered me to have dinner with me
and who wanted my email address to talk to me.
Then they all were watching TV, and I started to get bored as I
always get bored when I have to watch TV, and that's when Steven
started to change. He became madder, more angry, not just at me, but
of everything in general. He had always been mad or angry at
something, but now it's like his anger has changed. It had lost the
touch of sweetness it had before, making it harder for me to talk to
him, and to love him.. We went back and went straight to bed.
We came back to Austin on Sunday.
And this week has been a very short week because I only went to school
on Monday.
My birthday sucked, except for Steven not getting on the game, it was very sad.
My family called me, as they usually do on my birthday, and they
were asking if I was doing anything fun, but I didn't know what to
tell them. Steven got mad at me for that, and because I told him we
should at least do something different, even if it was here at home,
because it was raining all day.
"but I took you to Dallas, what else do you want?" he started to say,
and after slamming the door in my face, he began telling me that when
I go to Houston, to not bother to come back again, and a lot other
nonsense that I can't write here. I think now that he was just
being crappy, and maybe the fact that Ben, my cab driver fan, brought
me some flhem flowers and he was at the door, had something to do with
it.
Those beautiful flowers have helped me not to commit suicide as I
struggled to remain calm and leave Steven alone after the fight. I
called Ben and told him about it, and it felt good that at least
someone was there.
As I said yesterday, I celebrated my birthday after my birthday.
Steven apologyzed for the crap he have caused that sad day, but it
was too late. Nothing will be the same as it once were.
Even though I may love him for all my life, even if we might be
together for years, I can't get as close to him as I would like
because of his anger and his ability to pull me away from him if I say
something he doesn't like or do something his way. I tried to tell
him many times, and I'll do it again, that if he keeps doing that ,
it's going to destroy our relationship.
I made up for my birthday the next day, I went to my old school to see
my friends, and after that,, Brittany took me to her house and made me
3 CD's and a fruit-salad birthday cake.
I stayed with her until 3, and then I came home and listened to my
CD's and of course, danced.
I loved it!
Well that's it for now, also I want to remind anyone who is
interested that this December 8, at 7:30 pm, is my choir show at, you
wouldn't believe this, a church.
I always hated singing in church, but I'll do it anyway because that
would be my first chance, after 3 years, to get back up on stage.

Steven, my voice teacher, and maybe Brittany will come see me.

That's all for today, I'll write again next time.

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

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