My first day in college

Let me say first that if it wouldn't have been that Steven have given me such a good time last weekend, plus a very good dose of his sparkling energy, I wouldn't have endured yesterday's experience. It was worse than highschool, like if I didn't exist at all.
First I went in to register at 8:00, which meant I had to wake up much earlier than what I'm used to, and then after I registered and they gave me my schedule, I was all the more excited to go to college, especially after I met this otherr student who i also legally blind, has a laptop computer and knows his way around, I thought it was going to be fun!
It all started when I went to the classes! All I had to do was sit there while everyone else was reading handouts, and let everyone feel sorry for my damned self. Some of the students tried to help "this poor short little blind dumb girl", because according to them I couldn't do a God damned thing, they even offered me a priority seat, like if I was retarded or needed special attention.
But what was most irritating, was that they wouldn't even alow me to write or record in my digital recorder, they would just put a piece of paper, "in print", in front of me, and ask me if I could "see" the test or whatever they were working on.
And to make matters worse, they almost put me in a wheelchair seat, nah. And to make matters even majorly worse, my books probably won't be ready until next semester!, now that's a major crap!
I don't want to just sit in a God damned chair and pretend I'm not there, no wait, not only that, but I'm also going to have a "reader" and a "scribe", like if I was an aliterate! no way!
I told Cokie, if thay could only see the poems I wrote for Steven, if they would only know that I'm even working on getting them published on the web, maybe they wouldn't feel so sorry about me being blind like if it was some kind of disease!
My plan is this, if things keep going like they are, I am definitely going to give this shit up, but first I want to give it some time to see if it is really worth to try. I can't give up yet because of Steven, the only good part of my God damned life right now. Like mom used to call me when I was a little girl, I'm a zero on the corner. I was born a zero on the corner, I will die a zero on the corner. The only one who keeps me hanging on right now is Steven and this precious relationship we both enjoy.