All because I love him

Yesterday when he came I was already ready for him, as always. I didn't think that we were going to do anything different, that it was going to be samo-samo, but not really.
No news for yesterday, we did the same thing, made love, fell asleep watching movies, but when I woke up he wanted me to watch more and one more movie so it was kind of boring. Before watching the movies though, he asked me a question that I thought he wouldn't, but it sounded like it came from his heart. "If I jumped off a bridge would you jump with me?" he said. "Yes, I will", I said. "In fact, even if you went to jail I would come with you", I told him, trying to show him that my love for him is so true, so real.
"I won't do it, I just wanted to know", he told me.
I don't care how crazy that may sound in front of others, even my parents, but I would do it anyway.
I had to stand him watching 3 movies in a row, and when the fourth movie came I couldn't stand it anymore, so I put my headphones on and started listening to him singing Blues Travelers on my recorder, then I raised the volume a bit too much and heard the song I sang for him at our friend Sara's appartment the night that Cokie took me in. Hi knows how much I love that song BTW.
Anyway, I finally got him distracted off the movie. As soon as he heard the song, he signaled me in his cute ways, then I found myself wrapped on his loving arms with him climing on top of me, laughing, tickling me playfully.
You weren't watching the movie, were you?
"How did you find out?, I asked, laughing.
"I heard it."
"I thought you were watching the movie", and he finally told me, "I can pay attention to more than one thing at a time, but I'll turn it off if you want me to and listen to my book."
So he turned it off and I put some music on while he listened to his book, and then I just lay there, cuddling with him.
We fell asleep shortly after, he did first, and then, after watching him sleep with those loving hands around me for about an hour, I fell asleep too.
I woke up before he did, and a few minutes later, after kissing me from time to time, he did too. I forgot to let him know that Cokie was going to make breakfast for us, but he stayed here for breakfast because Cokie told him. It was wonderful!
While Cokie was making breakfast, he was giving her movies, (well, that part was a bit boring).
But what was wonderful is what happened afterwards, when we started doing those little things that mean so much to me but are so many and some are kind of hard to describe. For example, when I was making applejuice while he went into the room and heard that song
"Bleeding love"
another song I identify myself with, and when I heard it, I finishedmaking it, then went into some kind of ecstacy and ran out to meet him, almost falling in the way. "What is she doing?" he asked Cokie. "She's falling for you", she answered.
I just laught and sat right beside him, enjoying him. "well, I heard that song so I thought I'd turn it up so you can hear it", he told me. "Thank you", told him.
Another one was when we danced around the house, (he usually doesn't), and then there were times when he'd spin me round and around and I felt like I was the moon spinning around the sun.
"She's crazy", he said. "Your beauty is driving me crazy", I told him. "I'm not beautiful," "Yes, you are, beau-ti-ful", I told him, kind of in a frenzy, spinning round with him and doing some kind of an overly excited love dance around him while he tickled me here and there, making me laugh. "Did you see that?", he said to Cokie, "no," she said.
"If you would've seen it you'd understand what I'm talking about", he replied.
I ended up kind of giddi, and then tried to walk on a strait line but instead felt like I was walking like a drunk. I was definitely out of my mind, and that happens often to me when I'm with him, more and more.
We just hung out, then I sat cloce to him while he was listening to his book. In my mind, I thought, "I even almost knocked the juice over, and watched almost 3 movies in a row, and almost fell down, and would jump off a bridge if I had to, all for him", I sighed at the thought, my hands in his, savoring the tenderness of his skin.
Then it was time for him to go, so we kissed goodbye, not before dancing around a little more, and then he left with Cokie.
After that, I went online to publish my most recent poem, "Bag of dreams".

Latest news:
I finally got to publish my poem.
ACC: Cokie found a way that I might get my books on an audio format.
Phone: Tell me was canceled, so mom is going to buy me a new phone.
Poems: my recent poem, "Bag of dreams", is rolling better than a rolling stone. A friend from ACC read it, I read it to another friend who was interested, I send it to Steven by email on Tuesday, and Steven and Cokie just talked about it today and said it was wonderful. It's amazing how many beautiful things I am experiencing in my life in the middle of the ACC crap, so many wonderful feelings expressed on paper, and so many changes still to come.
And, speaking of changes, I might even get my dreamhome by the end of the year in December, when Steven gets his own business in November and finds an apartment he can aford to rent, I'm really looking forward to it!
Well, that's all for now, more updates next week.
And by the way, you'll find my poem at
www.lovingyou.com/love poems
Laters!