My First Step toward becoming a Cowgirl

My First Step towards becoming a cowgirl

This week has been so horrible at ACC but you know what?, who cares about ACC? I don’t.
Besides ACC, our relationship was starting to become too monotonous and boring.
All this week Steven would get up and go to work while I woke up with him, played my keyboard, put my mind together and prepare myself for another stressful day at ACC, from Monday all the way through Thursday.
Luckily, I have a Music class Tuesdays and Thursdays that allows me to put up with all the crap from the rest of the week, and that’s a relieve. Another relieve, is lunch time. I would go to the lounge, buy me a sandwich, and just sit down and listen to people talking, making noise, out of a classroom or an office and talk to Bonnie, my ex classmate who used to help me with Reading before I met Britaney, who is not going to school this semester because she was too late to register.
Anyway, I would talk to Bonnie, she likes to tell me stories, and then she helps me to my next class.
When I’m in class I just sit and do nothing but listen to what the teacher is talking. Sometimes I take notes, most of the times I record the class because it’s so boring that I might fall asleep.
Then I go to the bus stop to wait for my ride, and believe me, when I’m at that busstop, or sometimes even before I get there, there is not a single fucken day that I won’t find a jerk feeling sorry for me because I’m blind, or telling me that I would’ve been better off it I could see. I try to be as polite as I can, but always letting them know that they should mind their own business. My counsolation against the cold and distress, is my ocarina. I always take it with me, should I have to wait for a cab and have a chance to play it.
Then I come home tired and stressed out from school, and if I find Steven at home, he’s on the game most of the time but wants me to lay down with him while he’s playing the game at least for a few minutes. When I start getting a headache, I excuse myself and leave the room and go do something on the computer and have dinner.
Then Steven is tired and goes to bed, always turning his book on, so as to say that if I want to cuddle with him I have to listen to his book. Tired of all the crap from ACC, plus his crappy game, and part of his book, I am exhausted and go listen to something else at Cokie’s room and sometimes I even fall asleep talking to Cokie. I didn’t get more than 2 or 3 daily hours of sleep throughout the week, not counting Friday, I sure slept a lot and relaxed, and I’ve been supporting myself with naps, some music and love stories, and some sleeping medicine that mom gave me to prevent me from getting sick while I was here.
It’s been like that all week long, and on Thursday I felt I would explode if it were not that Fridays are my days off, I told em I at least needed a day off since they’re not willing to cooperate.
Steven seemed to notice my tension because I slept and cried a lot, so he put me right to sleep instead of letting me go, or was it that I was too depressed and tired to go anywhere, I didn’t know and I didn’t care. Even though put his book on, as always, he took me in his arms, and I put my earphone on and tho osed off.
Because I slept to early for my sleeping pattern, I woke up at 4 a m,waited for him to wake up and go to work, played my keyboard a little bit and recorded some country music, then I listened to a book on tape and went to sleep. I was woken up twice. First by Cokie, who wanted to look through my email and didn’t even told me what the hell she was looking for, and then by Steven. He called me, it’s been so long since he did so I thought it must have been something really special for him to call me just like that.
“Hi darling”, I told him, still half asleep.
“Wake up and get ready to go”, he said smiling. I asked “Where?”, “Just get ready, I’ll see you in 30 minutes”, he answered, still smiling in his wake up voice. I was half shocked, half excited, but I could tell he had a surprise for me.
I was still not quite awake when I got dressed and washed up, and I told Cokie, “Steven’s waiting for me, I gotta go!”
“Where?”, she asked,
“I don’t know, he didn’t say anything, but he’s waiting for me, I’m out of time”
“Shethen told me that she wanted my email again, Isuspected that she shut it up on purpose just to keep me here and talk to me about ACC stuff, but as soon as I finished, Steven was at the door waiting for me.
We went to the cab and then Steven took me to a music store, where his bookkeeper works. Then he remembered that I always wanted to play the violin, and he rented me one, and bought me another ocarina, a little bit bigger than the one I have, and another pinny-wistle for himself. Then we came back home. He helped me rozen up my bow and tune up my violin. I was very amazed and excited, I could almost imagine myself playing those cowboy songs in the violin, or should I say, the fiddle?
Anyway, I played for a little bit, he put a country song on his computer and I tried to play along, and then he got on the game and I went out to practice.
With those cowboy songs, bow in hand and my fiddle over my shoulder, I feel like I took my first step toward becoming a cowgirl.
Anyway, I gotta go play so more and try to familiarize with my new fiddle.
Laters
H I L: in a country mood.