Three weeks appart, forever together

3 weeks have gone bye, Almost , this will be the 3rd one.
I have been so lonely all this time, or almost all of it, because I have been missing my baby very badly that it was almost an agony. My only 2 consolations have been talking to Britaney at night, and hanging out with my mom when she was at home.
It was after newyear's when my boyfriend and I hadn't been talking much because everytime I called, either he was really tired and we would talk for 3 minutes or so, or he wouldn't answer his phone and I would miss him even more, get really sad, and wondered if he still loved me and if he missed me too.
It was until this Friday when I called and he told me that he really didn't feel like talking to anyone because of something that happened at work.
I was devastated, almost a month of being here, unable to go see him, and he wouldn't want to talk to me?
I cried a lot, and for almost the rest of the weekend all I could do was eat, sleep and think of him.

i wanted to call him but Britaney told me NOT to call him, so I've been calling her instead. It wasn't until today that I've talked to him, and he told me he was really concerned about me.


Britaney is truly a good friend, even though I met her in the midst of a crowd of crappy people at ACC. It was hard for me to trust her while we were in school because of that ACC crap, even though we have been sitting together at lunch ever since we met. Shortly after that, and after sitting cloce by when we were in reading class, she became my best friend at ACC. But since she and I started talking on the phone late at night and staying up till 4 or 5 in the morning, she did a good job, not only at winning my heart and my trust as a best friend, but on preventing me from ending my life.
I was so badly scared and sad that it seemed as if life wasn’t for me anymore, as if we were not going to be back together again and I really get scared of that at times, but now, with him not wanting to talk to me while I had to be here for almost a month, seemed so unbarable that I just wanted to give it all up and leave this world.
I would cry every night, talk to Britany and then cry myself to sleep all those days, but now, after she told me that she called him and that she was going to put him on 3 way, I laugh and laugh at myself, thinking about what would I have done if it weren’t for her. She’s made all this time barable and easier to deal with. Just hearing that he did miss me and that he was thinking about me was enough to put a smile on my face again, I wonder how happy I’ll be when I can finally “feel myself wrapped up in his arms”, like I said in my poem, “I miss you”, and feel him build that big “bag of dreams” he will build for me at night when he puts me to sleep.
Now that I think about it, we’re only 3 weeks apart, but forever together!

Well, I’ll go talk to my new best friend, and then I’m going to bed because I have an appointment tomorrow.
Laters, your H I L friend.